First class back after giving birth to my sweet baby boy, Aaron! 💙

I’m about 8 weeks postpartum and even though I’ve been sooooo ready to get back to my M/body for the last few weeks it’s been hard to find the time, even why baby boy sleeps, I want to hold him and soak up all the baby snuggles!

Tonight I just got the urge (yes at almost midnight my sleep schedule is all sorts of crazy right now! 😂) that I needed some Marnie and did the latest restore class and loved every second of it! This was the perfect class to return to! It felt so good to move my body, but honestly so strange to do it alone for the first time in several months! I miss the kicks and hiccups I felt daily, but love that I can run over and snuggle him whenever I want now, which I did post class! 🥰

I can’t explain how happy I am to be back on the mat, but I’m beginning with the intention that I’m not “bouncing back” I’m not who I was before and I’m not trying to get back to her, instead, I’m ready to get back into movement to honor this new body that carried life and continues to carry me. My intention is to tend to it with care, to grow strong, and to nurture myself so I can show up fully for my family. 💜

I don’t think I would be able to give myself this gift of taking care of myself like this had I not had 5 years of Marnie’s encouragement!

Today I celebrate my 42nd Birthday 🎉💖 I want to take a moment and share what I have been working towards this past year. Last August 2024 I enrolled in real estate school, after a few years of working part time as a jewelry designer and of course being a mama and wife I wanted something where I could be the master of my own destiny, no glass ceiling and with a mentor who was in my corner. Come a full year later, I passed my CA real estate exam on the first time and joined RE/MAX 🎉 I am excited for this new year and new chapter in my life ✨

Update. We ended up post poning the first half of the tour with hopes to get to do the second half (i wanna see Julia and Ellie in Bisbee!) It was a hard decision but my guts feels so much better. Today's Dancers Legs class, with the mention of tour, broke my heart but then reminded me not to force the will of the universe. That mantra came right when I needed it most. To let go to make room for what we need. Thank yall, I really dont know what id do without this class sometimes. If this week happened in the past versions of myself i would have handled it worse, instead the gratitude has overrided the sadness tonight. Love yall 💙 taking a few days of healing heart rest, excited to be at class on Saturday, it's been a crazy few weeks

Hey fam! I'm hitting the road on Wednesday for 40 days on my 10th and biggest tour yet! Would love to see some fam out there and hug yall so wanted to put this here In case any paths can cross 💙

Also, asking for protection energy and some safety love. Mbody is the one place I've always felt i could be open about what im going through and in the spirit of opening up, here it goes. Last week I got the news that 2 very good touring friends of mine were in a car accident on their first day of tour and my friend passed away, her and her husband were two major influences in my life for over a decade and basically taught me how to tour. She was also a wonderful yogi and we loved talking about being a woman on the road, theres a lot that goes into it! This tragedy has rendered me paralyzed with fear of the road and its been really difficult. I've been going through the motions but can barely play a show without weeping. Then a day later we found out our beloved vans transmission isn't safe to drive so our only option is a 40 day rental which is breaking my wallet and stressing me out. Cuz eventually we need a van. When it rains it pours, and life keeps lifing. But im gonna go on this tour and try to heal, but im just so nervous, scared and fiscally stressed i just wanna cry. So much work went into planning it that I think id be more sad canceling, but its just a lot right now and a lot of mixed feelings. So grateful the mat has been there for me during the losses, otherwise id be locked to the couch haha.

Anywho, thank yall again for being here💙 the Bourbon class was so needed this week. Love yall so much

When I saw this poem I thought it fit perfectly with our theme of presence.

PS Yvonne Riley and I agree with Marnie’s newsletter book recommendation!

Hi! I wrote a poem today and part of it has been inspired my Marnie’s ending meditations so I thought I would share with the community.

The steady march of my years—  

All 41 of them—keeps the machine  

Well-oiled and maintained.  

I lower my hand to my dogs,  

Feeling their gentle, loving licks,  

Taking bits of my fingerprint  

Into their own DNA that carries no guilt. 

My heart squats in my stomach,  

Lowering itself to reach the ground  

That catches me every time;  

The older one gets, the closer they feel  

To the earth that patiently awaits. Acceptance of life and death is like a steady chair,  

Unbreakable as you rest and wait  

For time to pass and bend.

Not all human bones endure;  

The collagen in our skeletons decays. Layers of what once were our bodies Become the only lingering trace  

That our dogs would continue to chase. 

Now, in the autumn of my life, 

I await the winter snow with ecstatic delight,  

Ready to feel the flakes blinding my sight. Into a blissful endless white, I go,  

Never trying to wipe away the snow.  

Even if I fall, the snowy Earth will catch me,  

And she will whisper "Steady on!"

I’ve been hitting the mat I promise 😂 I squeezed the recent 45/signature in while big kids are at school, toddler naps and laundry is running!

All I have to say is that my life would be complete if we got an M/Body cardio dance to Life of a Showgirl. Please please please Marnie I need it sooner than later 🫶🫶🫶

Hello family!!!It’s been a minute since I’ve written here in this space, but I wanted to take a moment to share something special with you all.

As Marnie mentioned last Saturday, my pre-teen daughter Antonella is officially starting her pointe journey!!! 💖 I am beyond proud of her and everything she has accomplished so far. This is such a significant milestone in her dance life, and seeing her excitement was absolutely priceless.

We were so grateful to have her school dance teacher there with us, offering support and guidance through this important moment. It truly meant the world to both of us.

Here’s to many more moments like these! 🩰✨