Mary Ellen, thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. Grief- ugggh. She’s a doozy, so powerful, so encompassing at times, sometimes a gentle presence along side of us and sometimes it wraps us in an all-consuming bear hug.
Do you have anything of your parents to wrap around you? A sweater, coat, blanket? If your spiritual beliefs align with this, would you invite them to visit you in your dreams and help you remember these visits? Invite them to show you how present they remain with you, in a sign that makes sense to you? Make some of their favorite foods or do something in their honor. What would they say to Mary Ellen as a little child that you could repeat to yourself now? What would they say to grown up you? What do you WISH was said between you all; can you make space for speaking that to them or writing it to them?
And please continue to connect. With them and the love they share with you (ongoing). Connect with us. Connect with kind hearts around you. Do in their honor and know how absolutely proud of you they are. The heaviness of grief means we need to tend to ourselves and nest, and then balance it with engagement with other living things (if people are too much, I get it, so can that be with animals, plants, nature?).
Grief remains, as our love and connections do. It is painfully beautiful. You are not alone, but this particular journey is yours. And that’s ok if it doesn’t match what the rest of us describe as our grief journeys.
Hmmm… want to throw out some days/times you might do a class from the catalog? Maybe we can align with you and do a class, or the same one, at the same time and connect from one mat to another. And definitely shout out when you are present at a Live class so that is also known. You are cherished; you have been and you continue to be. Sitting with you, in your feelings of loneliness, and gently nearby.
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Joyful celebration (also with the emotional feels toward our cool down stretches). Signature class with the series we expect and the magic of muscle engagement throughout. Jump options in the beginning with a bouncy cardio dance, weighted arm dance (not too long so don’t hold back), freestyle dance opportunities especially in upper body with pulsing legs, and barre work focusing on one side then the other with combo resets in between (at times facing away from device). We are briefly kneeling after the barre (not long enough to where I needed the ball for helping my knees but that’s an option), then incorporating our movement ball between thighs for P&P, then we are tummy up and ball is under hips (which granted me access to have the straightest lifted leg during those scissor-ish leg movements where I usually have my hands under my lower back but cannot fully straighten my skyward leg), and then rolling the ball from under foot to under calf (ball under one foot for wiggly hip bridge dancing was more challenging than I expected but still fun). The choreography down on the mat combines legs and crunches; a lot of leg movements where they are both in motion but doing different things. The slight forward bend of one shoulder toward opposite hip brings the heat to our obliques. Total full body; total presence; total joy and celebration! Class is left an hour, but the video is longer as we celebrate after the closing meditation.