Hey M/BODY fam. I've been a part of M/BODY for 4 years. This past February I needed to leave to find clarity within myself and the online world. I am 35 years old for reference, and growing up with the internet has been fun, exciting, and a good in the world... however, things became frightening for me and I felt like was a slave to the online world rather than a master of it. I couldn't keep up. And it made my question my place here even more.

I felt like I abandoned you all, because in a way I did. I have felt how wrong that is and I am sorry. You see, I used to believe that the feelings we share here are real and the connections we make are real. And then doubt seeped in. I got scared and my past experiences of being lied to, like by my mother & sister, got in my head and I didn't know if I could trust it here. I have been abandoned myself, and I began to wonder if the feelings I feel here are real. I got scared and didn't want to get hurt, and I left. I hope you can forgive me. I have struggled my entirety wondering if I fit in here... But one thing is for certain, I don't feel like myself without these workouts. I truly love this format and the music.I love who I am in these workouts.  I know I fit in there. I forgot to focus on the love in my heart. I am afraid to admit it because If I admit what I love, does it have power over me?? It comes back to the pain from my mother, I loved her and she did not love me back and I lived my entire childhood doing everything to get her attention and approval. I am so afraid women will be like that to me... and I am still learning to trust even with that grief in my heart. Through the years, I have protected my heart as If I am a wounded animal... I get closed off, scared, runaway, etc. I hope you can understand that. 

I'm a sensitive woman. I care more than enough. I am truly sorry and I hope you all can forgive me. But a side note, I kept wondering, should I say goodbye leaving a platform or say something. Like what are the mannerisms & etiquettes of the online world, because it can feel abrupt, and too fast for my soul. It didn't feel right to build a connection to the platform, then the membership is up and it's just gone. That doesn't feel right to me. Therefore, I am going to do my best to do the right thing, not just in real life, but even online. Because manners and etiquette mean something. 

Sending my love, and I'm glad to be back. 

OSEA Products. 

Marnie has mentioned OSEA products before- plus there is a promo code in the "Marnie's Promo codes" section. I'd like to know more about them if anyone here has tried them. ✨

This Christmas, I'd like to gift myself beauty, health, & relaxation and OSEA has that vibe to it. Has anyone tried their products? What do you like? Any recommendations for someone's first time trying this brand out?! I've always wanted to try and the time is now for me. 🌊

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all! 🎄May this wonderful season be filled with light and joy. 

Just for fun + carrying on the convo from the LIVE Planksgiving chat - What's your favorite Thanksgiving dish and dessert!? 

Happy Feast Day- Thanksgiving USA.

To the wonderful G-Fam:

We are all from different ends of the earth, honoring our own dance, in our own time, in our own way.

We come from different timelines, embracing the seasons of our own life. 

Our backgrounds and cultures are uniquely our own. And it is beautiful that we can share that with one another. 

You are all one of a kind with your own thoughts, talents, and unique abilities. Deep down, I adore this work and sharing it together. It has been a blessing in my life in more ways than you all know.

You each bring something special to this space and it's pretty wonderful that we are bonded by the love of dance and this work. (Thank you, Marnie  and M/BODY team, for bringing us together) It's incredible to experience this dance together and what a joyous gift it is!  

Continue to be kind, inspiring, thoughtful, and charitable. Share the goodness in your hearts with your family & friends, and everyone you encounter but especially with those who may be unkind or unfriendly for their hearts ache the most. Your goodness matters, and sharing that goodness reminds others of their own. Nourish that goodness and that true love within! 

All in all,

As the year winds down and the holidays approach, 

I am thankful for M/BODY and this G-Fam. 

I am thankful for taking the chance to join M/BODY for it has satisfied my soul. 

I am thankful for family, for health, and for love and beauty. 

Happy Feast Day this week- Happy Thanksgiving

Always,

Jessi

Nourish 

Yesterday, my husband and I spent the afternoon cheering for our home team, the Sabres against our friends the Montreal Canadians, and honoring our military vets for Veterans day. I come from a military background with family from both sides who have served the U.S military & taking JROTC classes in school myself. It means a lot to me. Honoring & expressing gratitude to my home team and our military vets nourishes my soul. Thank you. 💛 

Great game, we lost 7 to 5 to the Montreal Canadians. Shout out to Canada for having the best hockey fans!! 🏒 we had so much fun together.