My heart goes out to yours Mary Ellen! Grief/loss is so many things and it’s so hard because it’s all our own. Many of us know what grief feels like so it’s comforting that others can relate but ultimately our loss is only our loss and that can feel so uniquely lonely. I find a lot of comfort with the idea that we share the DNA, cells, with our parents and so in a way they are with us always, we carry them, even scientifically speaking lol. I hope you allow for all that comes with grief, even the joy as you hold their love in you. It’s a new relationship, this is how I view grief, and it’s a journey to shape that relationship with them. Sometimes I yell at my dad for leaving, other times I hear his advice and answer “yeah, I know”, some days I sob and try so hard to envision him with me. Sometimes I laugh and am silly and imagine him tagging along. I hope this helps, it’s what I find as comforting with my own grief. Sending lots of vibes of hope, togetherness, and comfort!
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27 Mar 20:01
Jessica, my heart goes out to you with all you have endured, being human, navigating trauma-it’s a beast. As I was reading your words as you shared your heart I just kept thinking how beautiful some souls are. It’s beautiful to share your vulnerabilities in this safe space. It’s beautiful and brave to give a voice to pain. It’s so brave and beautiful to show oneself! May light keep coming to you, may you bask in all the beauty you have and are fighting for! I hope the light keeps finding you and that so much love, safety, and celebration comes your way!💛