To my younger traumatized adoptee self: that biological connection, that yearning to see a family member who looks like you, you will finally have that. You will birth two babies and they will be everything you ever hoped. You will become a radio dj and you will have a large group of friends you see often. Keep dreaming. Keep going. Every step you take leads us here.

To my younger self just before the challenge: you CAN do this!! In just a few months you will marvel at your strength and flexibility and the start of abs showing.

I made a dentist appointment! I didn't want to, I'm scared of the dentist and for years didn't have dental insurance but I have it now and I need it done. I'm going in on Monday. Really appreciated Marnie's words today about just showing up. Showing up at the dentist is enough.