Our view for today's LIVE. 😍 Piper loves the snow. The silence of the snow fall I find to be comforting & beautiful ❄️ How grateful I am to experience something as delightful. ✨️ See ya'll at the LIVE today G/Fam 

Renewal 

The word renew can mean to make like new or to restore what's been worn out. It can also mean resuming after a pause or break. Even more so, the word renewal can be defined as, "changing into something new and different, something better." 

When I first joined M/BODY in February of 2022, right after the Superbowl, I remember simply falling in love with this work. I just felt like it spoke to me- an instant connection. I was so excited and full of vibrancy day, after day. It was the coolest to meet others who loved celery and lemon juice too. To attend Q and A's feel so much love and support from women I've never met in person but felt very comfortable around. And to be cheerleaders for others makes my heart soar! It's something my soul will always cherish.  

Therefore, after a year filled with hardships, that I had to pause M/BODY for a bit, I am renewing my love for learning in this space. Going back to that phenomenal  February 2022, that made me even more so in love with dance, movement, and music, I am renewing that feeling and allowing it to grow into something new and different, and something better. 

Thank you M/BODY G-Fam and to the team especially, for the space to be honest, raw, and messy and yet still feeling beautiful in the midst of it. 

Happy New Year G-Fam!! Wishing you all the best this 2024! 

Last year was a demanding year for me personally. It left me feeling insecure, frustrated, and I just didn't feel like myself. 😩 Therefore, in the spirit of joy and re-focus, along with learning from the hard lessons, I'm giving myself the grace to begin again embodying (M/BODY pun) who I am at the heart of it all. 💕

Cheers to a fresh start and the beauty of a new year! 🎉

Love you all! 

xoxo- Jessi 🪷

Hey hey! I've missed you all so much! I spent the weekend in Adirondacks for my brother- in laws wedding. We all had such a great time. I brought the app with me on the road and did some workouts in our hotel room. It was so awesome to bring the M/BODY app along. So grateful. I hope you all are well. 

Starting off my day with a spinach, peach, ginger, and chia seed smoothie. 

Hey fam! So excited for the month of August. I've been feeling a sense of renewal and good cheer. Today I doubled up on the workouts and I must say, I love the T-swift class even more. I remember how challenging it was when I first time around, and this time everything just clicked, as if my body just knew what to do. So much fun and so joyful! (Thanks Marnie) My younger self would be so proud of the fact I signed up for M/Body and have given myself the chance to learn and grow through dance and fitness! 

Also, this week I reached a personal goal of mine, I walked 20,000 steps the other day! Since the challenge began, I decided to walk each day as a meditation and reflection. It's been really rejuvenating overall. 

Plus, my spark for interior design has sprung up and I've been redecorating. I believe the wellness activity of cleaning out the cabinets reminded me of how beautiful spaces are good for the soul. 

I'm so happy to be here and I'm so grateful for all the love and support you have shown me. It means a lot. I love working out together. I hope you all are well. Love to you all! 

Photo - a pic of a wildflower in my garden 

Jessica's previous post on the loss of her beloved friend and grief hit home. Loss is hard. The deep sorrow of grief doesn't go away, you just somehow learn to live with it. And I am so sorry. 

Summer has been particularly difficult for me. My mom died in July of 2008 and her birthday was this past June. The baby I was pregnant with was due in June. Each summer since her death I feel lost. I still grieve the loss of my mother and what could've been. She was a mother of 5 with me being in the middle. She died of cancer and my brothers were 10 and 8 years old when she passed. Shortly after her death, my now husband and I moved back in with my dad to help him out. He left us and my husband and I have taken care of the house and my brothers over the last 9 years. I felt much shame because of my circumstance. Grieving my own brokenness and broken family, we wanted our baby and to begin a new family. So it's been a whirlwind of emotions. 

I didn't expect my life to turn out this way but after years of pain, I have made peace as best I can. It has been an honor to raise my brothers and that we have been able to give them stability in their life. I used to wonder "why" and I didn't understand because I was angry. But then I remembered, I wasn't the only one grieving. I had to accept we all handle grief in our own ways even when it doesn't make sense. I found forgiveness for my dad. "This pain will have purpose," are words I have said over and over to help me through. 

During these times, I typically feel scared, anxious, and alone. I don't want to burden anyone so I  usually keep my pain hidden. But I feel I can express myself here on this cb. Even though we all come from different backgrounds and live in various parts of the world, we are all more alike than not and our uniqueness is beautiful. Thank you all because the love and support you share with me and one another has shown me that it's okay to show vulnerability. 

So it's been tough and I'm doing the best I can. I have love in my heart and that's why it hurts. That love needs somewhere to go and I don't know where to put it.. that's okay, that's how grief can be. Life is messy. I'm a mess sometimes and that's alright. No one is perfect and we make mistakes both big and small and true love heals. Even though my life isn't what I thought it would be, I'm joyful for the gifts this pain has brought me. 

I'm grateful for the summer challenge. It hasn't been easy staying focused and I'm "behind" but I'm putting my best forward each day. I honor these losses by showing up as I am and doing the best I can living in truth, dignity, love, and honesty. Yes, it's hard, but I believe it is worth it. It is worth it because there is love in my heart and that is true. Thank you all for being here and for sharing your love

Hey fam. After the live, I went for a walk and took a pair of headphones to listen to some music. After reflecting on the reverence, I desired to give my soul some fun. Idk why, but the song Owner of a Lonely Heart by YES is such a pick me up. Maybe it's the guitar riff or the solo at the end but I loved when I heard it as a kid and even now as adult. 

I'm curious, what's your fav or "go to" song that you could listen to on repeat endlessly.