Okay, she’s not sleeping, but Eli is sleeping and she was about to very soon. This was my salty girl after the ocean this summer. We miss you Ellie 💛

Anxiety is simply a lack of information. You can’t know what you don’t know.

This challenge has led me through every single wave of its purpose physically, mentally, and emotionally. Most recently we all worked together to get to the summit together, as Marnie designed for us (hello planks and push ups and back to back endurance classes 😮‍💨 ) and now we’re working together to decend.

This is more challenging than the ascent for me and I know many others, especially after the peak high of making it through by challenging ourselves physically and mentally. Slowing down.

What started for me as what I thought was a reaction to less sleep, weeks of pushing myself, and new moves in Ballet sculpt (hello obliques) was not sore muscles. It was COVID. I am fortunate to have support and to be experiencing what I hope is a milder form. But it is making my brain really watch itself spin with thoughts of disappointment, guilt, and a desire to go to the mat as usual and feel the happiness and high. I keep thinking grace. Give yourself grace. Take this lesson. See what happens when you listen to it.

Thinking of you all and wishing that you are able to give yourselves grace. I am allowing myself to move through it, and trying as much as I can to hold it for me as well 💛

You will make it.

It will be painful and raw and you will feel incapable. You are not incapable. You have never been incapable, or too much, or not enough.

The same strength you used to defeat yourself will be the power that will allow you to find yourself.

It’s you Linds, it’s always been you. You can thrive.

I am making myself choose just one, not easy!! For me it was the <45 Detox Sweat Live. The energy and love from that live class with the videos 🥺 So thankful fam!

How about you??

My old girl with her muddy paws on my mat patiently waiting for me to start class. Her eyes looking right at me, her white muzzle and brows, her head resting calmly. I remember when you wouldn’t let me move without jumping all over me. But here she is, just being with me. Aging can be beautiful, huh Elle?

The belief that anxiety is shameful, bad, or an indication of my abilities. Anxiety is a reaction within me and my body’s attempt to warn and regulate. I can feel, I can listen, and I can validate; I can soothe and let go.

To quote our wonderful Marnie; “anxiety is just a lack of information”.

Getting ready for Saturday live and Day 8 🙌