April 25, 2022

This challenge has led me through every single wave of its purpose physically, mentally, and emotionally. Most recently we all worked together to get to the summit together, as Marnie designed for us (hello planks and push ups and back to back endurance classes ๐Ÿ˜ฎโ€๐Ÿ’จ ) and now weโ€™re working together to decend.

This is more challenging than the ascent for me and I know many others, especially after the peak high of making it through by challenging ourselves physically and mentally. Slowing down.

What started for me as what I thought was a reaction to less sleep, weeks of pushing myself, and new moves in Ballet sculpt (hello obliques) was not sore muscles. It was COVID. I am fortunate to have support and to be experiencing what I hope is a milder form. But it is making my brain really watch itself spin with thoughts of disappointment, guilt, and a desire to go to the mat as usual and feel the happiness and high. I keep thinking grace. Give yourself grace. Take this lesson. See what happens when you listen to it.

Thinking of you all and wishing that you are able to give yourselves grace. I am allowing myself to move through it, and trying as much as I can to hold it for me as well ๐Ÿ’›

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