M/body fam, I truly at a loss right now, I don’t know what to do, and I’m so embarrassed to admit…I need help.

As some of you may know, I’m a freelance hair and makeup artist. I travel and work on set for film, and I work part-time locally as a receptionist for a salon. My income is purely “gig based,” which means I just have to wait around until I get booked on a high paying gig like a feature film, large bridal party, etc.

Last month, I was MOH in my sister’s wedding . 5 wedding showers, 2 bachelorettes, gas + food + hotels to and from GA 7 times, rental car fees, and other bridal party expenses completely drained my bank account. I haven’t been booked on any gigs since March, and with the recent writer’s strike, there’s no work in sight for me 😭 I’m barely surviving paycheck to paycheck with my part time salon job right now…

All of this has done a number on my already fragile mental health. I’m in recovery for Anorexia nervosa, and am on medication for major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. In light of May being #MentalHealthMonth, my mental health has taken a HUGE decline and I’ve been having moments where I don’t even want to be alive anymore because it’s just so hard for me to have hope…

I’m humbly asking…if anyone has any odd jobs that I can do remotely? I would be willing to do anything at this point! Or if anyone feels led to help me with gas and groceries, my cashapp is $lissafort or zelle: 5613077105 you guys this was so, so hard to type and truly I’m falling apart 😭